falling

Friday, October 16, 2026

Truth

There are so many girls that will say that they are better than you and have unrealistically funny expectations for their life. A man that "loves you" at this age is UGLY, and nobody wanted him. The only people that are good for us sometimes are guys that see benefits in us, cuz theres no reason to not accept it. I had some men try to send me off on my way to go find "real love" when they themselves are capable of loving you. They just want the worst for you, they want you to have less and be enticed by the word "love". 

My family members want me to be married before having kids no matter this different generation that they see. Which will mean that I will have to only get older and run out of options some more. Spending your time feeding a baby, to a child, to an adult should show a bigger achievement than finding love.

Not saying having kids or moving on with the best options that are presented to us is the way, but creating even harsher battles or choosing to live in failed solitude is worse. I never knew that some of my family members that were men were as short as they were. I worked too hard for that generation's style too and of coarse these people would be in my face and unable to see it.

I am currently at my friend's house in Atlanta and his mother did a great job sticking to morals and appearances because she reproduced with a tall black man and made 3 millionaire kids. That's who I wanna be, not a woman who found love.

It's selfish, it's wrong, and locks me in a box. I'm not Indian so I refuse to act like I'm not Jamaican and the way I think isnt part of who I actually am. Sometimes being rebellious is the only way.

Girls that were bitches only found what could be found in Elementary school. No growth, nothing to show for your age. It's not bad to get with somebody cute but at least I can say that's an achievement for them. Worst of all they don't care about his background of embarrassing shit like being a criminal that doesnt do things for money or defense. But I do know a girl who found a guy that loved her, he's a male prostitute.

Saturday, October 10, 2026

I have a good record

My ex husband is doing big things btw
Look at all the celebrities he gets around. That guy has 1.7 million followers on instagram. My ex husband isnt ugly either!

Wednesday, October 7, 2026

Dr Sebi Nutritional guide

Yes I found the dream. This IS infact the true Dr Sebi nutrition list based on his videos that I fact checked with. He saved me from future sicknesses and gave me a deep-mucus cleanse.

Song of the day

Just a piece of my mind

My friends of many years want to continue to play games with certain things in our lives. I'm a serious girl and I just move on. I don't want a exclusive romantic future with them as much as I love it in my dreams. But in reality, we don't genuinely like each other enough to really do it. We are good ideas and that's about it. I can't do that because life is real. 

I will be divorcing my husband and moving on. My ex husband needs to wake up and stop trying to win me back with changing himself and wasting away his life, I literally tell him almost every phone call that is 2 or more weeks apart. Pain is cute and I do it sometimes too because it keeps your circle mature and able to develop into what you want it to be, but we are getting old. I am getting old. 

Jamaica is my happiness plan and I'm not ashamed to say my friendships there are so much better and easier for me than trying in the USA. I'm not struggling here, I'm just getting headaches for no reason. As I Jamaican, I should've had a kid before I ever got the chance to change my mind. This is not healthy for me. I can buy the life that I want myself, I don't need to put my emotions on the line for it cuz that's ridiculous.

I've said this already, I have literally revised this stance. I'm in a relationship I might be very happy with but these friends of mine are not true lol. So why pick one because "you cant have it all"?

Sunday, October 4, 2026

Tried a new outfit combo lol

Made an excuse to step out..
Full length size

Saturday, October 3, 2026

It's October 3

It's October 3rd and me and Tiana went to a Junior Carnival near her house in Sunrise.

Friday, October 2, 2026

Tiana and me day

For my 200th post...
It's Friday and my good friend is out of hibernation. We hung out and went to a cafe and Naked Farmer and watched movies at her house.