Truth

There are so many girls that will say that they are better than you and have unrealistically funny expectations for their life. A man that "loves you" at this age is UGLY, and nobody wanted him. The only people that are good for us sometimes are guys that see benefits in us, cuz theres no reason to not accept it. I had some men try to send me off on my way to go find "real love" when they themselves are capable of loving you. They just want the worst for you, they want you to have less and be enticed by the word "love". 

My family members want me to be married before having kids no matter this different generation that they see. Which will mean that I will have to only get older and run out of options some more. Spending your time feeding a baby, to a child, to an adult should show a bigger achievement than finding love.

Not saying having kids or moving on with the best options that are presented to us is the way, but creating even harsher battles or choosing to live in failed solitude is worse. I never knew that some of my family members that were men were as short as they were. I worked too hard for that generation's style too and of coarse these people would be in my face and unable to see it.

I am currently at my friend's house in Atlanta and his mother did a great job sticking to morals and appearances because she reproduced with a tall black man and made 3 millionaire kids. That's who I wanna be, not a woman who found love.

It's selfish, it's wrong, and locks me in a box. I'm not Indian so I refuse to act like I'm not Jamaican and the way I think isnt part of who I actually am. Sometimes being rebellious is the only way.

Girls that were bitches only found what could be found in Elementary school. No growth, nothing to show for your age. It's not bad to get with somebody cute but at least I can say that's an achievement for them. Worst of all they don't care about his background of embarrassing shit like being a criminal that doesnt do things for money or defense. But I do know a girl who found a guy that loved her, he's a male prostitute.